I love how you look so cute all the time. I love how you always care about how you look, like me. I love how when you say you look a mess, you look even sexier than normal. I love how you still think your fat when your just perfect. I love how you're so tall it makes me feel like one of those pretty petite girls. I love how when you hug me, it feels safe, warm and makes the shit feelings go away, I stop thinking about everything that makes me want to kill myself every second of the day, it makes me happy for just a few seconds, then you let go and all those shit feelings come rushing back.

I'm sorry. That's just how I feel.